Choosing My Words Carefully Here

I am going to make this entry carefully. I want to express myself without coming off as a racist. I hope I can accomplish that, but I have recieved some information. I have found out a lot more since then.

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Let me begin by asking, why does a white person have to be so ashamed of being white, that they convert to acting black. The lingo, the bad English, the foul language.

I will tell you why. Because when a 13 year old girl is thrown into a situation where she is a minority there is pressure to 'fit in'. It is either fit in or become an outcast. That is still no excuse.

What is so wrong and uncool about being white? What is wrong with being proud of YOUR heritage, YOUR culture. Why do whites have to pick up black peoples 'culture'. I say culture, but I dont consider saggy pants, gangsta talk, and foul mouth rap music to be a culture, nor calling yourself ghetto and your friends your hoes, and I dont mean garden hoes.

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So where am I going with all this you ask. Well, I will tell you now that I have set a scene. What I am about to tell you is a very BIG reason we moved. I didnt want this to happen to Shelby.

Yesterday my daughter came to me with some news, and little by little more came out.

The first thing she told me was that Tiffany had a boyfriend and they had gone online to her MySpace site and she showed her a picture of him. Well, he is black.

You see, she is surrounded by blacks, in school, at the skating rink, the whole damn county is black, and it ain't the good kind. There are an estimated 50 gangs in Clayton County alone. Nice huh. I guess when you are in an element, you either adapt or get run over. She is adapting, and it is not looking good.

I went to her site. I was so shocked and disappointed. I called her mother. Sent her the site through her work email. As I dove in deeper I read permiscuous behavior, hinted drug use, and a lot more. It just about killed me to read it all. This girl has grown up with Shelby. But since they moved back to Clayton County, she has changed.

Over the weekend Mikes daughter told Tiffany that she sounded and acted black. That made her mad. Well...if the shoe fits. Apparently Tiffany only acts and talks black when she is not around her mother, and she knows better with me.

Her mother said she would look at the site when she got home last night.

I told her, if I saw that kind of trash and it was my daughter, the internet would be GONE.

I went this morning to see if the site was gone. It is in fact NOT gone. She evidently had her heart broken by the one black guy as he asked another girl out to a dance? So she has already moved on to asking another black guy out herself. Her friend that she was talking to about this was saying they would be so perfect for each other and maybe they would kiss and hug and maybe even more. :(

This is not the child that I know. I told Karen she needed to get back out of that county as soon as possible. Because this would happen. No child that has just turned thirteen has any business talking like this, or acting like this.

Shelby is very concerned, very worried for her friend. That is why she told me.

I have done all I can do. If her mother chooses to let these things slide then I dont want to even think about what will happen later on.

I know plenty of black people that are good people. For some reason most of the ones that have gravitated to Clayton County are of the mentality that they must act and be ghetto and gangsta. Makes me sick.

In part of her profile she says she may look white on the outside but she is not on the inside, implying she is black.

Would someone please tell me why it is so cool to try to be black?

I am just so sad about this. I really hope and pray that things will get better, not worse.

That is all I have to say really. I could go into detail about all that I read and saw, but its just not necessary, you get the point.