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I am a 42 year old woman that is about as happy and content as one person can be. My husband of 21 years and our 15 year old daughter live on five and a half acres out in the country. We moved from the city four years ago and never looked back. I homeschool our daughter. We also love our animals. Our daughter has a miniature horse and two rabbits. We also have a border collie, two cats (again), two pot belly pigs, four peafowl, three emus, 2 llamas and an undetermined number of chickens, lets just say ohhh about 200. I have many breeds, from layers to fancy chickens. I love poultry shows, I love fowl in general as I have come to find out through having more than just chickens. Chickens will always be my first love though. I do show some of my birds occasionally.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Beat Down Feeling

I am tired. Exhausted. Beat down feeling. Between keeping the animals up and semi happy early in the morning before it gets hot, to working outside in the heat to get some things done out there, to getting Ians toolbox last night and getting back late and getting to bed late, I am just tired tired tired.

I spent the better part of yesterday getting the posts driven into the ground and the fence wired onto the posts for the goats to be penned for the gardening season. I didn't move their fancy house I got them when I first got the goats. Its just too heavy to be moving back and forth, so I made them a makeshift shelter just for over in the penned area. I also went around scooping horse poop out of that area as that is where Derby uses the bathroom a lot is that far area. The goats are just going to hate being penned up, but I have to so we can have our garden. Right now all we have planted are tomatoes, squash, and red potatoes and they don't seem interested in that. They just want to get in and eat the weeds and grass growing up around the edges. Its one of those the grass is greener on the other side kind of things I guess.

Ian is also very tired. This new schedule is going to take some adjustment. Working 12 hours three days in a row, and the fact that it is on the weekend, working in the heat and working hard lately on machines has beat him down too.

Last week we went to Lowes and there was a toolbox there. It was on sale too. Twenty percent off until June 20 or something like that.  I am not even a guy and I thought it was really cool. He had been looking at one that was going to be 400 dollars shy of this one, and it didnt have any of the cool stuff this one had. This one has an mp3 hook up, overhead lights in the top lid, a Pioneer stereo, with CD player...and get this...a refrigerator! Yes, a fridge. Now this is not just a toy, it is in fact for work. Since starting in maintenance he has outgrown his current toolbox anyway...and what a Fathers Day gift eh? So I went last night to get it...but

I went to get it in the new truck, that has the hardcover on the bed. I thought the box would slide in flat, Ian did too. Wasnt going to happen. I had to come all the way back home and get the old truck and then go back to Lowes so they could load it up and strap it down. The thing is huge. So I got back home about 11 pm...and collapsed on the couch. I had stayed awake too long though...now I was awake and glued to the boob tube. Stayed that way til 2:30 am. Bad me I know. I had to get back up at 4:30 to get Ian up for work. I felt awful, I was in a daze. After he went to work I went straight back to sleep. By 8 I couldnt sleep anymore so I gave up and here I am. I think if I can just drink an entire pot of coffee I will make it through the day.

I have so much I want to get done, but my body is just not willing to give me all the juice I need to get it all done. I remember when I was in my twenties I could clean the whole house in a day, scrubbing tub and all...then still have energy to go out and mow the grass and trim the bushes. Now I guess I move much slower and just have to pace myself. If I do manage to get a lot done in one day..I feel it in my bones the next day for sure and that slows me down even more. Its heck getting older. It isnt for sissies I know that.

Well I know this has just been a rambling on pointless entry...lol. I just felt like rambling I guess.

I think I will go let the dog out and make that pot of coffee. Get all the critters fed and watered, finish prepping for the goats to go up so Ian can plant some more vegetables Monday and Tuesday while he is off without goat interference. I think thats all I will do outside today...I will just get the laundry caught up and maybe clean my bathroom.

With Ian working long hours every other weekend I have found myself needing to be busy to pass the time. I have gotten a lot done this weekend, I will say that.

I hope everyone is having a nice Sunday.

It is Fathers Day! So to all the fathers out there I wish you a very Happy Fathers Day. May your day be filled with everything you enjoy. :)


madcobug said...

I hope you can get all you want to do in this heat we will have today. Happy Father's Day to Ian and to your Dad. Hugs, Helen

breakaway1968 said...

OH Ouch!  Bed at 2:30 and up by 4:30?  I have done that before but with having Nic I  never did it again ;)  It was a VERY bad day for me lol.  Last night I went to lay down with nic at 9pm and planned on getting back up.  Woke up to Cory climbing in bed around midnight.  He was over at his mom and dads talking about his car...and I thought oh well...I may as well stay in bed now.  Hope that little nap helps you a bit.  happy faters day to Ian :)  Have a great day

gen0507 said...

Hey Kelly,
It's been awhile.  Colt is keeping us so busy....He's got a job now & D R I V I N G!
He's already had his first accident.  Of course the police station called it an incident not an accident.  Thank God it wasn't Bad!  He backed into a truck while leaving work.  It just messed up both bumpers.  Hubby knew the man, so he's letting us pay for a new bumper.  Thank God again...not having to put it on our insurance.  It's bad enough as it is.  The tool box sounds GREAT!  I would have never thought a toolbox could have so much. I think you need one too....with all the work you do around the house.  I know what you mean about not being able to hold out like you use to.  I have the same problem.  I'm sorry that Ian has to work on Father's Day!  Tell him Happy Father's Day!  Maybe the toolbox will help it to be a little happier!


ally123130585918 said...

You sound to be just as busy as always ~ It must be hard going in the heat you are having ~ That toolbox you have bought for Ian for Fathers day sounds wonderful ~ "I enjoyed your ramblings" ~ Ally x

PS Happy Fathers day to Ian

wwfbison said...

No wonder you are exhausted and feeling beat down, you work like a man...well probably alot harder than some actually.  It takes a toll on us (females) who do such hard work, add the heat into it and it is a recipe for burnout for sure.  I know exactly the feeling you speak of.  My legs ache at the end of some of these long days so badly I don't think I'll make it to the bed.  Ian has to be burnt out too with the new work schedule, it sounds awful but having so many days off sound good so I guess it goes both ways.  The toolbox sounds awesome, what a gift!!!  I hope you get some rest and feel better, take some YOU time!!

nelishianatl said...

I have had a hard weekend.  It sounds like you all did too.  Hope to see pictures of that tool box.  That sounds very cool!  This heat is killing a lot of people.   Please make sure your drinking a lot before and while you are working so hard.  

We've wore ourselves out this weekend.  I am sick and sore.  Haven't even posted it yet.  To tired but reading some journals.

Let's get some sleep and come back when I'm making more sense. LOL