Good Friday Morning

I hope everyone is doing fine this morning. I am doing pretty good myself. We finally got some of that rain that has been coming through the area for days each afternoon but always seems to miss us. It cooled things off from the nineties down into the seventies. What a relief that was!

I want to thank y'all all for your views, votes, advice and comments on the dilemma I had with hatching those eggs.  I gave it a lot of thought and I feel like this...

I don't like to hurt anyones feelings, even if they have upset me like Ricardos dad did when grabbing Eddie, my goat. I don't believe that he thinks he is doing anything wrong. Some people have that mindset that you are not going to change or make them understand otherwise. I absolutely didnt want to contribute to giving life to those eggs after seeing the way he does not understand the way animals think. I can see he does not relate to animals and try to understand their way of seeing things in this world, and I wasnt going to be able to give him an education on this. In their home a woman doesnt seem to know a whole lot about anything except keeping the home and cooking. Another mindset I don't like at all. So rather than start a big uproar over what he thinks and what I think, I just cut it off at the base right now. I know some think I should have given him what-to-for, and when I was in my twenties I probably would have raked him over the coals good, but I take medication for that now. ;) He just isnt worth it anyway. I wouldnt waste my breath. Some thought I should tell him the truth, but that would entail me getting upset, and again, he isnt worth it. I know some don't approve of lying no matter what, but sometimes I feel it is justified to keep the peace. I feel this is what I have done.

What some of you may or may not know about me is that I used to have some real anger issues. If I got mad, and it could be something that didnt amount to a hill of beans, I couldnt stop this snowball effect inside me. Most people vent and feel better. I would get on a roll about something and before you knew it I was lecturing Shelby for thirty minutes all the while yelling and just almost in a rage you could say. I couldnt keep doing that to her. I also got to a point where everything got on my nerves. Just someone walking through the room, just being in my viscinity would tick me off.

Some will say I should be able to control myself better. Some will say its a chemical imbalance. I believe the latter. Before this happened to me I would have laughed it off and said taking pills for that kind of thing was silly. But when you are in a turmoil that wont subside, eventually you get help. I was put on Prozac years ago, and as long as I stay on it, I tend to be a pretty evened out gal. I dont sweat the little stuff. I dont get mad over any little thing. Things dont annoy me anymore. Don't get me wrong. I still get mad, I might even raise my voice, but you can bet it will be because something is REALLY going on.

With that said, I took the easy going road and opted to just ease out of this whole relationship. I absolutely feel no guilt about not hatching those eggs for him, or lying to him. The other option was just not an option. It would have caused bad feelings and nobody was going to learn anything. If I thought he might change his way of looking at things, maybe then I might have tried, but I really believe he just wouldnt have gotten the message.

So that is what Prozac does for me. Keeps me pretty level headed I think.

I have had several of you mention how y'all like my new look and my new sidebar. THANKYOU! :) I just wanted a new look, something more, some bright summer colors and some of my favorite pictures I have taken of my chickens. I found lots of sayings I liked too off of CafePress.com. They have lots and lots of cute stuff you can put on t shirts, mugs, buttons, stickers, all kinds of stuff. I just went through and borrowed some of their stuff. ;)

So what is everyone doing after the big weekend that went on last weekend? I am going to color my hair. I am currently really looking like white trash walking around with my hair half blonde and half brown...lol. So I am hitting Sallys Beauty Supply today and doing my hair over the weekend so I can at least look like respectable white trash. ;)

I think I will mow the weeds over the weekend too. The grass isnt keeping up with all the dandelions and other weeds out there so it looks wild and scraggly. I love to mow anyway, it is something that I find pretty relaxing.

The animals are all doing well. I have started letting the layers out in the evenings for a couple of hours, but the thought of all day makes me a nervous wreck, so I am not up for that yet.

Did you know June bugs are great yummy fun for birds? The chickens have always loved chasing them down and crunching them up and eating them. The emus, are having just as much fun. There are so many out there all they have to do is stroll around and one will be right there for them to snatch out of the air. At first they tried chasing them, then they realized they didnt have to do all that work, the bugs come to them! Fun to watch them.

Well thats about all I got for now. Ian is working this weekend so I am sure I will get caught up on everyones journals and take some pictures over the weekend.

Have a nice weekend and stay COOL! :)