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I am a 42 year old woman that is about as happy and content as one person can be. My husband of 21 years and our 15 year old daughter live on five and a half acres out in the country. We moved from the city four years ago and never looked back. I homeschool our daughter. We also love our animals. Our daughter has a miniature horse and two rabbits. We also have a border collie, two cats (again), two pot belly pigs, four peafowl, three emus, 2 llamas and an undetermined number of chickens, lets just say ohhh about 200. I have many breeds, from layers to fancy chickens. I love poultry shows, I love fowl in general as I have come to find out through having more than just chickens. Chickens will always be my first love though. I do show some of my birds occasionally.

Friday, July 11, 2008

Good Friday Morning

I hope everyone is doing fine this morning. I am doing pretty good myself. We finally got some of that rain that has been coming through the area for days each afternoon but always seems to miss us. It cooled things off from the nineties down into the seventies. What a relief that was!

I want to thank y'all all for your views, votes, advice and comments on the dilemma I had with hatching those eggs.  I gave it a lot of thought and I feel like this...

I don't like to hurt anyones feelings, even if they have upset me like Ricardos dad did when grabbing Eddie, my goat. I don't believe that he thinks he is doing anything wrong. Some people have that mindset that you are not going to change or make them understand otherwise. I absolutely didnt want to contribute to giving life to those eggs after seeing the way he does not understand the way animals think. I can see he does not relate to animals and try to understand their way of seeing things in this world, and I wasnt going to be able to give him an education on this. In their home a woman doesnt seem to know a whole lot about anything except keeping the home and cooking. Another mindset I don't like at all. So rather than start a big uproar over what he thinks and what I think, I just cut it off at the base right now. I know some think I should have given him what-to-for, and when I was in my twenties I probably would have raked him over the coals good, but I take medication for that now. ;) He just isnt worth it anyway. I wouldnt waste my breath. Some thought I should tell him the truth, but that would entail me getting upset, and again, he isnt worth it. I know some don't approve of lying no matter what, but sometimes I feel it is justified to keep the peace. I feel this is what I have done.

What some of you may or may not know about me is that I used to have some real anger issues. If I got mad, and it could be something that didnt amount to a hill of beans, I couldnt stop this snowball effect inside me. Most people vent and feel better. I would get on a roll about something and before you knew it I was lecturing Shelby for thirty minutes all the while yelling and just almost in a rage you could say. I couldnt keep doing that to her. I also got to a point where everything got on my nerves. Just someone walking through the room, just being in my viscinity would tick me off.

Some will say I should be able to control myself better. Some will say its a chemical imbalance. I believe the latter. Before this happened to me I would have laughed it off and said taking pills for that kind of thing was silly. But when you are in a turmoil that wont subside, eventually you get help. I was put on Prozac years ago, and as long as I stay on it, I tend to be a pretty evened out gal. I dont sweat the little stuff. I dont get mad over any little thing. Things dont annoy me anymore. Don't get me wrong. I still get mad, I might even raise my voice, but you can bet it will be because something is REALLY going on.

With that said, I took the easy going road and opted to just ease out of this whole relationship. I absolutely feel no guilt about not hatching those eggs for him, or lying to him. The other option was just not an option. It would have caused bad feelings and nobody was going to learn anything. If I thought he might change his way of looking at things, maybe then I might have tried, but I really believe he just wouldnt have gotten the message.

So that is what Prozac does for me. Keeps me pretty level headed I think.

I have had several of you mention how y'all like my new look and my new sidebar. THANKYOU! :) I just wanted a new look, something more, some bright summer colors and some of my favorite pictures I have taken of my chickens. I found lots of sayings I liked too off of CafePress.com. They have lots and lots of cute stuff you can put on t shirts, mugs, buttons, stickers, all kinds of stuff. I just went through and borrowed some of their stuff. ;)

So what is everyone doing after the big weekend that went on last weekend? I am going to color my hair. I am currently really looking like white trash walking around with my hair half blonde and half brown...lol. So I am hitting Sallys Beauty Supply today and doing my hair over the weekend so I can at least look like respectable white trash. ;)

I think I will mow the weeds over the weekend too. The grass isnt keeping up with all the dandelions and other weeds out there so it looks wild and scraggly. I love to mow anyway, it is something that I find pretty relaxing.

The animals are all doing well. I have started letting the layers out in the evenings for a couple of hours, but the thought of all day makes me a nervous wreck, so I am not up for that yet.

Did you know June bugs are great yummy fun for birds? The chickens have always loved chasing them down and crunching them up and eating them. The emus, are having just as much fun. There are so many out there all they have to do is stroll around and one will be right there for them to snatch out of the air. At first they tried chasing them, then they realized they didnt have to do all that work, the bugs come to them! Fun to watch them.

Well thats about all I got for now. Ian is working this weekend so I am sure I will get caught up on everyones journals and take some pictures over the weekend.

Have a nice weekend and stay COOL! :) 



robinngabster said...

I voted for lying!  :)   I hate turmoil and even worse getting myself all upset over something I don't need too.

madcobug said...

I believe for the long term range you took the right approach. Have a nice weekend. Hugs, Helen

ally123130585918 said...

Kelly you did exactly what you wanted to do ~ and I admire you for that ~ you have to follow your own heart and you dealt with the problem the way you wanted to ~ I agree he is not worth getting riled up over and I would not want to see you getting upset over this matter ~ he certainly isn't worth any upset ~ Ally x

mosie1944 said...

I had someone contact me a couple weeks ago asking if I had ever read this journal (it was Robin, who has already commented on this post).  "I just love her," she said in email.

Of course I had to brag a little, so I replied promptly and told her I was the person who suggested you start a journal!

After all, what's not to love?

jimsulliv3 said...

I have no patience for people who mistreat anaimals. You have every right to be upset.


bojgill4375 said...

I have a really hot temper too... I actually think it can damage one's heart getting so angry! lol I really have a hard time keeping still at times... but sometimes that is the only way to handle some people. lol I think all of my family is on Prozac except for me; and my aunt tells me I need it too. lol Just runs in my family. I think you did the right thing. I would not want to help him raise chickens either.. or any other animal !! I am going to color my hair next week. Was suppose to go yesterday and could not believe my car would not start for the first time!! lol Hope you have a peaceful weekend too. Janie

browney44 said...

Hooray on your rain!  I planted all the flowers for the reception and now no rain so I am watering.  You don't want to see my water bill after cleaning the pool and planting all the pretty new plants.  $$$$

I understand where your coming from not wanting to hurt feelings, you will walk a mile to keep from hurting someone or an animal.  Me too.  Good luck on your fib!  I know sometimes I wish I could just tell a person "what for" and be honest but it isn't in my nature.  LOL


schoolgal040 said...

I'm so glad for you that Prozac is working. I am also a "new" user to Prozac and so far, so good. I just have to get used to the side effects which are starting to go away. Everything you say about it is so true!

Stay cool :)
PS: Some people just don't understand that pets, no matter what kind are our "family" and should be treated as such---just like you do and I do! :)

wwfbison said...

I see all of your points with Ricardo and agree with you.  As I said, when we have animals we have to pick our battles, you never know what someone is capable of and we just can't be around 24/7 to watch.  I'm glad the Prozac works for you and you acknowledge you need it.  I have a nasty temper and have been known to explode but I am trying to control it more lately.